someone's procrastinating...
December 19, 2002 | 3:50 p.m.

OK, it's been 6 days. I didn't mean to leave it this long, honestly, but I'm having trouble getting time and space to write. I always have work to do or there are people around me distracting me. I have to have time alone to write entries. Mostly because I really don't want anyone I know in real life to know about this diary and also because I like to give the entry my full attention. The same goes for emails, too ;)

Thanks for all the nice words about the new design! It really means a lot to me, and I'm sorry I haven't replied to everybody yet. I've got into the habit of procrastinating so much that I even put off doing things I want to do - how does that work?

I'm worried at the moment about my uni application, so I think that might be why I've not been writing so much. I probably won't get it finished now until after the Christmas break - we come back on the 6th, and the deadline is the 15th. You have to get your app in before that date in order to receive 'equal academic consideration' (though who knows what their definition of that is..) so I'm OK. I'll get it done over xmas and probably sent on the 6th or the 7th, at the latest. The problem is that I'm worried that all the places will have gone by then. I'm conscious of how little I know about universities (and, hell, London itself, but I guess that's all part of the fun. Heh) themselves and how it all works. I also have a feeling that I'm not mature enough to survive on my own, even though you're still sheltered to a certain extent.

I haven't even allowed myself to think about what the hell I'm going to do if I don't get any offers.

Rubber ducks are cool.

<3
gf

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